Behind My High Def Lenses...

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yes i have high def lenses...dont see what the big hoopla is but the chick at Hour Eyes thought they were a good investment and i felt like i was was balln a lil bit so hey go 'head and add them high def lenses on there...but i've digressed ....

i have had alot of random shit flowing thru this lil mind. but what makes it worth discussing for me is that emotionally i'm on sum other shit. i dunno it's a mix between smitten/bitter/melancholy/cool/good/depressed/happy it's crazy because i can honestly say that on any given day i can be one of these or have it be like yesterday and be all of them. now after sum things have changed, alot of shit has stayed the same in soo many ways. like i dunno just in my own world and loving it...or something like love.

speaking of love i have been reading this book called Urban Romance. no, its not some Zane shit or anything of the sort and its not some hood drug dealer's girlfriend book...sorry had 2 clear that up 2 many times, but the couple the book discusses just have a connection thats soo pure and organic. being that it started from the most simplest of actions and then turned in to just more thoughts about eachother and then grew from there. i dunno it's kinda inspiring. like i've been a mush pusher since i started reading this fuckin book (Sorry panda, lls) but yea it opened up something i thought had officially froze the fuck up...my beating organ if you will. but then again maybe it is just the book but it could be love or something pretty damn close. cue the new love music...or always been there something bigger than love more like a friendship set to a soundtrack in my head music...

my music intake is greatly helping/hindering my growth i swear. it's almost like with every song i listen to i take 10 steps forward or 3 steps back. while i despise bafoonery in any form especially music form, the fact that there is no substance or hell anything but a beat in these songs at certain point and times they've helped greatly, but then when i listen to my lyrically orgasmic substance filled songs at times they've hindered my growth and made me question or hell brought up old situations i just wanted to kinda of throw in a case and launch that bitch into the Pacific, but then again isnt this the same bullshit that made u? dammit, touche.

i dunno i guess my life really is Music,Love,Pen & Paper (with some grammatical errors along the way)

heart and mind gutted and emptied on paper...or typed to bits on blogger...i should do more of these, makes me feel like im actually saying some deep shit but in essence i aint said shit at the same time, Blah Blah Blah

Open up the sky this mess is getting high
its windy and our family needs a ride
I know we'll be just fine when we learn to love the ride.
I know we'll be fine when we learn to love the ride
I know we'll be just fine when we learn to love the ride.


on a lighter note words i'm living by and soo fitting for a sunday entry: Let Go and Let God. Period.

now i'm in the water...lets see where it takes me.