Yep.

hate if u want too....u know its balla!

Ha!

sorry this had me crackin up at work and its cool 2 see a pretty girl with a sense of humor...KUDOS!

YESSSS!

:O

dont judge me i watched this on mute..

ahh!

busy
emotional
text'n
hot
coffee drunk



my day n a nutshell.

Word.

this is the coolest shit i've ever seen done with a ballpoint pen.

Lisa Turtle!!

i use 2 luv me sum lisa turtle...but i'm jus glad every1 doesnt look fucked. every1 actually looks very good!

Word?

o yea ....she's asian!

im bout 2 get back 2 eating white bread asap!

(yes the white bread diet works folks!)

i'm not saying he's a crack head...

...but this video is VERY crack-ish..




Jesus take the wheel...please.

The double standard n relationships really PISSES me off...hadda been me it woulda been world war 3 n this muthafucka! AAAHHH! Da fuck?!




And that is all.
Goodnight world

: o

da hell?

for like 5 seconds thought this was remy ma...but yea had 2 share this with someone else...

Big Sean

:)

and again....

NO1 FEELS SORRY FOR YOU!
PERIOD


IT HAS BEGUN...LLS

: )

I'm Excited For it...

Why Did This Take Soo Long?

since she dropped her 1st book (which i did read) and then another snitch chronicle(which i didnt read)and now u wanna come out with a book on ur expertise but when they call u on the shit u wanna act uppity? i'd a ended the damn interview myself and they did it nicely! but the real question for me is WHY DID THIS TAKE SOO LONG? and why did it have 2 be a white reporter to do it? why is every1 bting around the bush for this broad? seriously, u've been raped, and didnt have the best child hood, so u use that as a ploy to fuck and suck who u want but oohh you are the victim? life is about choices people period, if u let you enviorment make you guess what thats a sign of the weak and it gives the people who hurt you power! think about it, they going on with they life as if nothing happen while ur sitting here hurting yourself and being a DAMN FOOL!you're suppose 2 grow, never digress!

sorry had 2 go in on her ass for a min, cuz i'm soo sick of the i didnt get enough hugs excuse 2 do what u want. and this aint coming from a shiny background i have hella dark spots and just fuckstick memories, but i believe in my own way i've come out on top i'm 21 years old, no kids, no disease, i work, i'm in school, and i've never been known as the fuck-me chick. o and i have a healthy relationship with a fuckn awesome guy! so yes people you to can live like you want and not how some event made you


ok enough rant...on with the video!

Before I forget

I'm fully behind/promoting/endorsing:

Palm pre

Bubble bath

Verdi

Blackberry curve

Love

Life


Van Hunt

Nudity

And last but not least:

Ur past..its ok 2 look back and forgive but by all means ....NEVER FORGET!

My Bubbles...

On sum rev run ish right now...

I'm n my tub with bubbles and candles and music...making love 2 myself forreal lls but seriously ilm jus trying to relax and chill and not think and clearly use alot of ands...lls

But on a serious note again I feel creatively stifled and jus n a shell
Its gettn better...kinda.
Funny shit is that here I am typing away with my thumbs and I had this balla ass revelation blog planned n my head and again I start and the whole thing leaves me jus as quick as it came.

Sheesh....well lemme jus think random thoughts...

*panda has a blackberry now so I finally got him down with the times...I miss his aura when he's not around. Its not off some petty needy shit either its more like when he's not around I feel it. That's it. But since he's trying 2 be all tech savy with me he's thumbs are gettn quite nimble...look at 'im go! Lls

* cute girl syndrome has hit me. I dunno I jus wanna kno what its like 2 be the cute chick instead of the cool chick...don't get me wrong I'm still cooler than most with ovaries..but I have more 2 me...so multi'ed I jus sometimes get the feeling no1 sees it...I wish they wouldn't underestimate me..but my dilema is I don't wanna be the just a pretty face either...ahh! So much 2 discover in only 1 life...I need an assistant just 2 help me with my mind...any1 want 2 apply?


Welp my skin is gettn prune-like so I'm bout 2 wash up get another glass of verdi and call it a night...so until my mind has anything else 2 say...i'm relaxing ...
I've made peace with people and I've been jus doing the right thing for the life of me. I jus hope everyone that is suppose 2 notice notices . Its been pretty funny to cuz as much as I change thing kinda stay the same.

Just How Panda Makes Me Feel Sometimes...

...Eric Roberson puts it fuckin perfectly!

She ought to know by now that the love I have is real
She ought to know by now everything I say I feel
She ought to know by now there's no secrets to conceal
She ought to know by now...

Verse 1:
Pulled out my heart and rang out all the love
Gave it to her but it was not enough
Went back to see if I left some behind,
Hoping that one more drop will make you mine

Chorus:
She ought to know by now that the love I have is real
She ought to know by now everything I say I feel
She ought to know by now there's no secrets to conceal
She ought to know by now...

Verse 2:
I'm out here knockin but she won't let me in
Just keeps on stoppin before we can begin
But once I'm in she will see
How good love can be
But right now her past is clouding her views of me

Chorus:
She ought to know by now that the love I have is real
She ought to know by now everything I say I feel
She ought to know by now there's no secrets, no, no secrets
She ought to know by now...

Want to show I love her so
Bridge:
I gave her kiss she said she needed more
I got in my car and went straight to the store
I spent all my dollars, and took a part a rose
For every step ya take I drop these on your toes
She shook her head
So I wrote a letter
Hoping that my words would come across better
But still no reply, least not the one I hoped
She just closed out her eyes and let out these notes

So I just stood there scratchin my head, hey
Prolly when I should have been listening instead
Wanted to know her wishes not just her fears
Just want her to know, know that I'm here

Chorus:
She ought to know by now that the love I have is real
She ought to know by now everything I say I feel
She ought to know by now there's no secrets to conceal
She ought to know by now
Oh she ought to know, by now, there's no love that's not real
She ought to know by now everything I say is real
Hey, she ought to know by now there's no secret to conceal
And I'm done
Cuz she should know by now

Marsha:
You ought to know I need you
You ought to know I care
In your love I believe in, my heart is yours to have
Now just know I'm here, you ought to know I'm yours
There's no need to fear, no need to be unsure
You ought to know to trust me you ought to know I'm honest,
So have some understanding let the truth be your promise
I know I have a love I know I have a friend
But do we know each other?
We wont know till the end
You ought to know by now
You ought to know by now
You ought to know by now
You ought to know by now



and the great Janelle Monae also adds her wonderful 2 cents

I need to talk to you
Lets make it last (oh lets make it last)
Embrace what we talked about
Dont wanna look back
And see what Ive been without
Now Ive made up my mind
To make this work with you
Cause you and no one else, feels me like you do
See my father knew best when he said a man should fight for me
And baby Im gonna do whatever feels right for me
You hey you you you
you you you you
Darling I know its hard
with this long distance and all
But im tired of writing you with this pen


Why cant we go back to how things used to be
You would look in my eyes and tell me that you love me
see my Mama knew best when she said that you were right for me
And Im gonna do whatever feels right for me
darling Ill fight for you
you
I'll fight for you anyou and only you you

Forget climbing mountains, Im flying home to you
Girl there just aint no way
There just aint no way, I can live without you
Cause its all about you you you






BANG! so there big guy! feel the love...

so..

...i'm drained to 2 the highest capacity, like no bullshit i dunno how im a make it 2 7am 2marrow...

and it's amazing what u can miss when ut phone dies and ur in another state...and dammit dont get mad when i text u back! look my damn phone died and i dont memorize numbers anymore so get offa my case! shit! on a lighter note...i actually bought a dress today(dun dun dun)


ok i'm too drained 2 even blog so lemme work on staying up right now and i will make up for this shit later.

After A Fuck Stick Day....

MTV Shows

...hi cudi

Feeling Really...

-loved

- lazy

- domesticated



Sheesh and its only like 1:45 ...soo early for more than 1 emotion!

Did You Know...

that she's Quincy Jones' daughter?

why am i shocked by this...and her name is Rashida....ooooo yes...even though she tried 2 kill my PB & J on the office she was a great add on the show

Mo'ning!

lls

but i wonder if the world knows my struggle?
like seriously i've been making big moves lately, well not that big but hell big enuff!

fat kid death is going pretty good i'm down 10! i cant see it but hell its gone so yea fuck it!
uhh me and panda are having a mini ruff patch right now. although it is NOTHING like any of the struggles we've been thru, its a struggle none the less. i guess at this point in my life i want my companion around 24hrs a day everyday. maybe i'm being selfish but fuck it, if i wanna see him, spend time with him, hell poke him in the chest, i will make no apologies for it or feel bad anymore. granted i dont want 2 sound like a cry baby or nag the man, i will let how i feel be known.

on a lighter note, i get 2 see Panda today, lls after all that right?

but yea it feels like it's been forever and a day.


hmm, what else can i dabble in with this conversation.....eh! nothing really so ..until i think of something....

Yay!!

there is a reason behind my madness...jus watch the whole thing





i fuckn LOVE Pharrell and i feel closer 2 him now, kids's movies...i'm startn 2 think he's either trying 2 be the PERFECT guy or he just knows he is...

ahh!

*cue the dream sequence*

It Feels Good...

to forgive my father and have peace with both parents.

that is all.

You Know What Really Grinds My Gears...

..This Video!



no explanation needed
both parties suck equally!

and that my friends is what really grinds my gears

Sometimes I..

- music can save me from either saying something i regret or overthinking a situation

- wearing my heart on my sleeve isnt just a sign of weakness but can show strength (take that take that!)

- wish i could be on a reality show but i think it will take all the reality out of me

- have very graphic sexual dream involving Stacy Dash and Mr.Bubble (ooww)

- dont sleep because i'm scared of the next day

- imagine conversations that i could have with certain people

- smoke certain memories away (until those annoying triggers bring it back)

- quote others in conversation and take credit for it

- watch porn for comedic value

- drink only because it seems like the thing 2 do

- say too much

- dont say anything at all

oooowww!

:)

.....Now You Know

Ha!

"can u feel a brand new day?!" what seth kno about the wiz?!


and for a min i thought they was just going in on blk folks...

aww man i HEART good ol' racist humor!

Guess What?

even in rick james eskimo boots...he still looks better like 95% of ya!


take that!
take that!

:diddy bops and presses publish button:

bleh!

sleep at 3:30 ...at work at 8:30...come back to this bitch at 11...i surprise myself sometimes...now the real question is...how hard am i going 2 sleep my life away 2marro?

shout out to:

tom tom's

adams morgan atmosphere providers

smirnoff vodka

whoever made that cranberry juice

my vegas trip for introducing us to Kamakazi shots

Go Go bands throughout the DMV area (both well known and new jacks)

and finally sprint navigator for making sure we got to where we needed to go.


this morning i would like 2 shout out:

deet park water

and tylenol

The Mike We Like 2 See....

i would point out the irony but its too soon!

When Keeping It Real Goes Wrong...

Obama edition:

ion give a damn what noone says i would have looked too! shit! she had ass! so guess what ...i'm behind you Obama!!

Had To Grow On Me

now for a riddla moment:

-dont gucci mane look like his breath smells like pennies and raw chicken?
-did anyone know sean garrett was that buff?
-(this question needs a lil background)Remember the movie Class Act with Kid n Play? ok remember the dude that was i guess the bad guy of the movie, ol' buff big scary joint ....now look at sean garrett...dont he make u wanna ask "hey damita i thought u was gonna play with my frog?!" ahahahahahaha!
*We Have Visual! the scene starts about 8:51*

-is this really in baltimore? gonna have 2 confirm this with chris.
-does nuvo have stock n rappers? cuz this pink drink is everywhere!


overall its a good look cuz i like the song...now atleast. lls

Recession? What is this Recession You Speak of?

Jay-Z - 35 Million
Diddy - 30 Million
*Kanye West - 25 Million
50 Cent - 20 Million
Akon - 20 Million
Lil’ Wayne - 18 Million
Timbaland - 17 Million
*Pharrell - 16 Million
T-Pain - 15 Million
Eminem - 14 Million
Dr.Dre - 13 Million
*Snoop Dogg - 11 Million
*Ludacris - 10 Million
*Common - 8 Million
Will.I.Am - 8 Million
T.I. - 8 Million
Swizz Beatz - 8 Million
*Andre 3000 - 7 Million
Big Boi- 7 Million
Flo-Rida - 6 Million
Rick Ross - 6 Million
The Game - 6 Million
*Young Jeezy - 6 Million


i've taken the liberty of highlighting my favs, .....who knew flo-rida would get more money the rick ross this year? and i would like to take the time to point out how high andre 3000 is and how low big boy is .....yea i said it!


and keep in mind people this is more money than most of us have but they are still in the avenue of rich, who has wealth? i believe if kanye get his head together he can do it. diddy, i figured u'd be there already and jay-z is moving in the right direction...so yes blacks with wealth always warm my spirit.

Early Morning Hard Body

damn Marion Barry...and this is u with the monkey off ur back

not a good look, not at all

but despite how hard he tries 2 appear has ur crazy uncle at the cookout DC still loves them sum Marion Barry.

Balla!

this just warmed my spirit...

Gorgeous!

ok so remember how i said i was n love with the Stevie Wonder Performance from the Michael Jackson Memorial...well lyrically right now, nothing is fucking with this song period!



No more lying friends
Wanting tragic ends
Though they do pretend
They won't go when I go

All those bleeding hearts

With sorrows to impart
Were right here from the start
And they won't go when I go

And I'll go where I've longed
To go so long
Away from tears

Gone from painful cries
Away from saddened eyes
Along with him I'll bide
Because they won't go when I go

Big men feeling small
Weak ones standing tall
I will watch them fall
They won't go when I go


And I'll go where I've longed
To go so long
Away from tears

Unclean minds mislead the pure
The innocent will leave for sure
For them there is a resting place
People sinning just for fun
They will never see the sun
For they can never show their faces
There ain't no room for
the hopeless sinner
Who will take more
than he will give
He ain't hardly gonna give

The greed of man will be
Far away from me
And my soul will be free
They won't go when I go

Since my soul conceived
All that I believe
The kingdom I will see
'Cause they won't go when I go

When I go
Where I'll go
No one can keep me
From my destiny.


only a legend like Stevie ...i promise u that!

Early Morning Cool

just some cool shit at this God-Forsaking hour..

wait...profanity and God in the same sentence...sorry.

Random Tid Bit

ever see a guy and ur like wow he's cute as fuck and then he opens his mouth and ur just like WHOA! he's a fuckn idiot! or WOW! he as no substance?

yep. that just happened.

crimes against humanity i swear!

Very Nice

just some good shit for ur day!

So..

..Chris Brown was there..

Guess Jay-Z allowed him to attend....



i'm jus saying...



o yea..



yes Jackson Women...

like i said Good black dont crack
peep Reebie!

Rest In Paradise

so like every1 else that was suppose 2 be working i was watching the Michael Jackson Memorial.
honestly i was surprised, i thought it was going 2 turn into sumthing just our right outrageous and extra but it turned out 2 be gorgeous.

now where my beef begins is with the media, they keep replaying his daughter's moment of grief. please for the sake of her sanity people L.I.G it. (let it go) because look what yall did to michael. should we really do that to paris by putting her in the spot light? and how painful is it 2 watch her on that stage crying? so yea for the sake of her sanity stop showing it

not even going 2 go in on mariah, but word? low cut dress? and be glad u finished strong cuz woo...i guess i'll chock that up 2 grief.


to something wreckless...i'd honestly would have liked 2 see Chris Brown, yea i said it! he could have done the Thriller tribute he did b4



yall can go in on him if u want to ...that performance was on point! and so what if he punched Rihanna in the face, R. Kelly pissed on girls and there are hella wifebeaters n music but Breezy gotta be treated like a crackhead? come on now!

and if u learn nothing more from this memorial just know that good black dont crack.

my favorite performance. Stevie almost had me n tears at work.





o yea and B.E.T (Bad Ethnic Television) should have showed this memorial and somewhat saved (or attempted to save) the credibility of the awards show





o yea and i'm going 2 put this out there...Michael Jackson did not make Obama happen, sorry folks. there were more factors than that. i'm jus sayin'

Creepy but also kinda Cool

ok but how blown would u have been if it just started doing the dance from Thriller? i'd be stoked!

Soo..

..thats where Loon went.

what is Diddy doing to his artists?! sheesh!

Techie Moment

so i officially gave up on that htc touch pro and went with the palm pre which i bad mouthed for days ...well i actually ended up gettn the damn phone..

now i'm not even gonna front..this is like my new toy and im happy and so far everything still works...thank God!

so fingers crossed but i will apologize ....the phone is pretty cool.

Jennifer's Body

Good Shit

Period.

Fourth Of July

i hope yall got fat and drank and watched the pretty lights n the sky...

i ate decent (not fat tho) had me a apple martini with my mama and say the ass end of the fire works...black people and our concept of time..sheesh!

Coffee Drunk...

this should be a crime n all 50 states...

but yes i believe i am a lil too awake for my own good...

i am sitting here at my desk at work having a party by myself with my starbucks bold blend venti size listening to baltimore club

now u kno damn well...lls


and no1 is textn me back fast enough..and my twitter is moving slow as fuck sheesh...i need faster friends!

ok lemme stop cuz now i think im jus typing just to type...

hol up Peanut Butter Jelly just came on...ok back 2 my party at work!

The Cutest Thing Ever!

sorry when i have coffee and i'm awake im kinda easily amused...

YAY!!

NOW
who's really my friend and is actually going 2 go see this with me?

C.O.T

Come
On
Tittie

lls

sorry i was thinking that the whole time i was watching this
so i guess Sport's Bras r outta style now?

Reasons To Travel

i would love to go and float about Chicago..

because i feel somewhat obligated....

so is this real? or simply a funny?

When Keeping It Real Goes Wrong

Wale edition:

snuff session...that was real uptown of u lls you shoulda finished the song in his face tho..or giving him the good ol' 1000..lls

its hard out here for hecklers man...its really not their year.