...i feel effin' good!
now its been a min since i could say that too....i honestly have no stress on my shoulders or any monkey on my back or anything im jus free and light!
i'll be even lighter when i cut my hair but yea coming to a blog near you...lls
whats funny bout the whole thing and this is honestly no cocky either...i feel like my appearence reflects my new found joy and new found happiness..like my skin is clear, im losing weight healthy-like...and im smiling more and the whole nine...it feels effin good! like is it wrong i've been hearing lovely day by bill withers since i woke up? i dunno i have a muse that makes me feel this way (that damn PANDA lls hey u!!) like he's my piece of sanity in this fucked up world and honestly he's made my writing soo much better and i feel like he's making me better. Its not just that...i just feel like my struggle and everything isnt it vain.. i'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel if u will... so i guess this blog is kinda that YAY ME blog lls.
As The World Turns...
haha!
good ol' black str8 to dvd films!
who knew urkel was funny 4real...
Classic 90's shit..
Aint NOBODY gonna be bernie mac!
Say It Aint So!!!!
see yall mofos should of just takin a damn step back!!
but awww Pharrell...it's ok babes... if a nigga get famous i guess he aint human no more right, sucks that earthlings dont let anyone show emotions...and honestly after watching the video i dont see what the hoopla is about. jeez is everyone so frail body now and days? GET OVER IT. i still HEART my skateboard p .....and for those that forgot what he's capable of doing on stage...
sidenote: who do i have to kill to get to fuckin SXSW?
Real Random ...but i was thinking about this last night
so...with diddy ya kno working on a solo album and what not and all this bad boy this and bad boy that convo, (yea....da band was my shit! lls ) ....WHEN IS SHYNE GETTIN OUTTA JAIL?!
lls...is it gonna be like on some suge knight shit? i hope not, cuz didnt suge knight get knocked out? my fingers are crossed for the day...
DAMN YOU KANYE!!
so...musically im broader than linebacker shoulders....but ..bmore club?
and they have the nerve to judge go-go!
but thats neither here nor there
but yea this new song i hheard it thursday night in my friend's car (hey adams morgan!)
but yea ....alotta buts in this blog....but yea im saying i do consider this song bmore club...and its got me rockin'......damn you kanye!!!
I'm The Shit Remix
DJ Class Feat. Kanye West
i kno you dont believe me but listen to it 4 yaselves!
http://www.zshare.net/audio/578053620214b1d0/
dont get it twsited...still wont catch me spongebobin' or whatever is hot in baltimore no time soon....
Concert Review : Oddzar!
now upon arriving and being the tokens of the evening...and this review is from what i heard after a carona and some pale ale so yea lls
so the great panda and i went to a concert last night and were joined by his friend/biggest h8ter that i've seen thus far, lls
the concert was for local band Oddzar.
had'nt really heard much from them but the few songs i had heard were pretty decent. so i didnt really have an opinion on them from jump. so after some soft ass opening band..lls...they came out. now presence... or swagga for my dark counterparts....was on point and all that good stuff...now here's where opinions are like assholes ...everyone has one. personally i thought the show was decent and they did do one of the songs i knew so i did feel in the loop. there were songs i didnt care for but like i always say ...those werent for me, lls. now panda, who won a raffle for a drumhead somehow..lls...affirmative action maybe....but he enjoyed himself and even bought the new cd they was selling...LAST BUT MOST OPINIONATED friend/biggest h8ter that i've seen thus far...was not impressed at all and was pretty pissed off about the performance and basically after the show went in to a 20min rant about how its either hard metal rock or nothing at all...lls but coming from the nigga in the front yelling "PLAY SOME OLD SHIT!!" what do u really expect?
not gonna front tho, the old shit was pretty balla.
but yea overall good shit either way....
For My Monologue
i had 2 pick a monologue for my acting class and it had 2 be 60 secs long
so being that my memory is piss poor lls i decided to pick an easy one and i chose good ol' Sam Jackson's bible speech.
now what sucks is i thought i had it memorized until i got on stage....damn this stage fright but in memory with my class ....here's the famous scene
Tough Love
i HEART Tough Love...i'm just waiting on the whole when keeping it real goes wrong moment ...o and trust me it's coming!!
My early fav is Abiola ....not just because she's black either lls....quite frankly she seems like a sweetheart.
Insomniac Rant
New Rule: If awaken from nap i will not repeat will not try to go back to sleep cuz chances are im either gonna get woken up again or around this time when i should be sleep or atleast attempting sleep, i'm wide awake and both awaiting a phone call from a certain black and white animal (hint hint) and listening to more good shit.
hmmm.....now the mind spins circles and squares and triangles and other geometric shapes.
i dunno i did good today tho..lls....day 1 of numb.
well not completely numb but day 1 of feeling nothing but cool calm and collective and its going pretty good. like seriously i could have flipped out on random crock of shit that happens throughout my day but i just sucked it up and then spit it out (thats what she said, lls) i dunno i guess i am officially learning that just because my common sense and third eye to things is more observant of things that not everyone is there. my mother put it best when she said not every1 is on your level and thats no cocky. im not even on my level some days...if that makes sense. i just turn my headphones up and wallow in the music. speaking of music i have found a new respect for artists. honestly i find it crazy that they write these songs and then evoke different feelings in different people and overall just can bring out the best or the worst. but i guess i kinda do the same thing with my poems ...or so i've been told.
is this what happens when i'm held awake by my own mind and other forces? bleh! i need 2 take my ass 2 sleep like NOW! lls
have i been gettin 2 personal?
i might have but fuck it....how i'm feeling at the time right?
well 2marrow i'm planning a drunken hot girl night lls so wish me luck.
dont get any of this new deepness twisted either i'm still wreckless.... remember i'm an alien only earthlings are 1 dimension.
Back to School
lawd....
there is officially no place like college....where else can u go 2 sleep at like 3 am and then wake up at 10 to go to class? well now that i think about it it's really not that bad lls
anyway...here i am and there is the rest of the world. right now im n a numb place and im just chilling and taking care of biz.
did i mention im still losing weight? yessir! and its pretty noticeable now so yay me!
oddzar concert friday...yay!!
hopefully i wont miss them this time....lls
so my emotional goal this week is to not get mad or in my feelings about anything. its too early to tell but it might be possible...fingers crossed
and the world is still turning and my headphones are still louder than the demons in my head.
Groupie Moment #10
while i musically orgasm over here...and after viewing some old rage performances...that talented man ....ZACK DE LA ROCHA!!
(public service announcement)
YA CANT JUST BE A PRETTY FACE
I REPEAT
YOU CANT JUST BE A PRETTY FACE
I WOULD ADVISE ALL PRETTY BOYS TO GET A TALENT
CUZ NOTHING GETS THE VAG WETTER THAN A GIFT GIVEN TO YOU BY GOD TO BLESS THE REST OF THE WORLD..
(public service announcement)
Here In My Room
this song is gorgeous and lyrically profound...lls...those were my music critic words...i guess today belongs to incubus for me...
Here In My Room
incubus
This party is old and uninviting
Participants all in black and white.
You enter in full blown technicolor
Nothing is the same after tonight.
If the world were to fall apart
In a fiction-worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing now that you're here
Your love is a verb
Here in my room. (x3)
Your love is a verb
Here in my room. (x3)
You enter and close the door behind you
Now show me the world as seen from the stars.
If only the lights would dim a little,
I'm wary of eyes upon my scars
If the world were to fall apart
In a fiction-worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing now that you're here
Your love is a verb
Here in my room (x3)
Your love is a verb
Here in my room. (x3)
Pink tractorbeam into your incision
Head spinning as free as Dervishs' whirl
I came here expecting next to nothing
So thank you for being "that" kind of girl.
That kind of girl (x9)
Some Of My Favorite TV Show Intros
Family Matters...dont fake
Golden Girls...dont judge me!
The Wonder Years...This is on my ipod dont judge me!!
Cheers...lls...sorry that damn dr.pepper commercial..lls
Married with Children...Made Men music..
The Smurfs...yea i said it!
The Nanny...yea i watched it..
Living Single ....dont be hatin'
Moesha...when i had a crush on Q...lawd
Diff'rent Strokes..yessir!
The Jeffersons...yeppers!
Good Times..."hangin' in a chow line" ...ooohh dave chappelle...lls
Since I'm In A Live Music Mood...
more good shit...
Incubus- Stellar
Incubus- Sick, Sad Little World
Incubus- Aqueous Transmission
Incubus- Earth to Bella Part 1
Incubus- Pendulous Thread
Rage Against The Machine- Vietnow
Rage Against The Machine- killing in the name of
Rage Against The Machine- Bulls on Parade (Acapella at RNC)
Since I brought um up...
The Mars Volta-The Widow
The Mars Volta- Wax Simulacra
At The Drive In- One-Armed Scissors
At The Drive In- Arc Arsenal
Thursday- The Lovesong Writer
Behind My High Def Lenses...
lls
yes i have high def lenses...dont see what the big hoopla is but the chick at Hour Eyes thought they were a good investment and i felt like i was was balln a lil bit so hey go 'head and add them high def lenses on there...but i've digressed ....
i have had alot of random shit flowing thru this lil mind. but what makes it worth discussing for me is that emotionally i'm on sum other shit. i dunno it's a mix between smitten/bitter/melancholy/cool/good/depressed/happy it's crazy because i can honestly say that on any given day i can be one of these or have it be like yesterday and be all of them. now after sum things have changed, alot of shit has stayed the same in soo many ways. like i dunno just in my own world and loving it...or something like love.
speaking of love i have been reading this book called Urban Romance. no, its not some Zane shit or anything of the sort and its not some hood drug dealer's girlfriend book...sorry had 2 clear that up 2 many times, but the couple the book discusses just have a connection thats soo pure and organic. being that it started from the most simplest of actions and then turned in to just more thoughts about eachother and then grew from there. i dunno it's kinda inspiring. like i've been a mush pusher since i started reading this fuckin book (Sorry panda, lls) but yea it opened up something i thought had officially froze the fuck up...my beating organ if you will. but then again maybe it is just the book but it could be love or something pretty damn close. cue the new love music...or always been there something bigger than love more like a friendship set to a soundtrack in my head music...
my music intake is greatly helping/hindering my growth i swear. it's almost like with every song i listen to i take 10 steps forward or 3 steps back. while i despise bafoonery in any form especially music form, the fact that there is no substance or hell anything but a beat in these songs at certain point and times they've helped greatly, but then when i listen to my lyrically orgasmic substance filled songs at times they've hindered my growth and made me question or hell brought up old situations i just wanted to kinda of throw in a case and launch that bitch into the Pacific, but then again isnt this the same bullshit that made u? dammit, touche.
i dunno i guess my life really is Music,Love,Pen & Paper (with some grammatical errors along the way)
heart and mind gutted and emptied on paper...or typed to bits on blogger...i should do more of these, makes me feel like im actually saying some deep shit but in essence i aint said shit at the same time, Blah Blah Blah
Open up the sky this mess is getting high
its windy and our family needs a ride
I know we'll be just fine when we learn to love the ride.
I know we'll be fine when we learn to love the ride
I know we'll be just fine when we learn to love the ride.
on a lighter note words i'm living by and soo fitting for a sunday entry: Let Go and Let God. Period.
now i'm in the water...lets see where it takes me.
CLASSIC!!
they soo dont do opening themes like this no more...
i HEART retrojunk.com
HILARIOUS!!
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
WHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
wait....wow.....AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
ok i'm done....sorry i had 2 laugh like shit cuz jeez. lls
Good Shit..
Lovesong Writer
by Thursday
My Favorite Song By Thursday...
already got it in the Green Anthology
Mars Volta/ At The Drive In
Mars Volta
At The Drive In (Thanx for putting me on Panda!)
Yup.
underdog of the day
them boys good...yup gotta see um live.
but yea check out both...mars volta and at the drive in...they're kinda the same thing being that the lead singer is the same person and all but yea check um out i'm more of a mars volta fan tho myself.
eritarka, inertiatic esp, and the widow are my shit!!!
Pumpkin Seeds..
..aint nothing wrong with that
...sorry kinda bored and a lil bit of writer's block and my creative juices just arent flowing today..
maybe later...
Speaking of ...
The United States Of Tara is my shit!!
like i HEART this show and even the opening theme is balla but yes if you have on demand please check it out!
Diablo Cody is the greatest 4 this one!!
my fav alter by far is Buck.....he/she's the greatest!
Return of My Fav Alter Ego
With My Next Check...
STRIPPER POLE!!!!
with fake money and soundtrack...
..i'm have a ball...lls...yessir!
New Glasses...
o yea almost 4got...
That's my gangsta grillz face...lls.jpg)
soo bored at work...lls dont judge me!
the "now you know damn well face"
ok so im bored at work...wanna fight about it? peep the gangsta grillz face and rethink that!!
hahahahahaha!
Wrap That Shit Up!
So apparently D.C Aids numbers are higher than africa? word? yup guess who just vowed to not have sex with anyone ...well except for...monogamy people..it goes a long way!
but for my single folks....or freaks...wrap that shit up!!
life or death out here!
Bari The Beautiful...
..i've been watching The Show Show for a while now and it always brings a smile to my face ...but there is one character that he created that brings joy to my heart lls...
Kareem the Groundhog!!
i effs with this soo hard...someone on my wreckless caliber....yessir!
how wreckless you ask?
...that wreckless...lls
My Official Phrase 4 The Rest Of My Life!!
so last night i'm over HIS house chillin drinking some raspberry verdi..yessir...but yea i'm watching the classic last dragon and a certain quote hits me in the chest and i will officially put it to use with the rest of my life,
KISS MY CONVERSE..
how fitting right?
well there you have it! the officially phrase to the rest of my life :)
and i shall tip my hat to whoever is making verdi...i didnt think you could out do yourself but ahh sparkletini...yessir!
WERK!
yes i spelled it with an e lls ... in my next life i wanna be a gay man that is a ball legend..
ok quick question....how are they holding these wigs on?!
Bitchassness....New Title for Making The Band
after tonight's episode of making the band i have even more proof that Que should have been DeAngelo. Is it me or is Que jus the most cry babiest nigga on the planet?
i hope Will tosses Que over the banister....Jeez!
so until Que either grows sum balls or they get rid of his monkey ass i will affectionately call the show Bitchassness..
Just in case yall 4got what bitchassness was....here's diddy with the Definition.
So ...about this hair thing....
so honestly if you know me everyone knows im bout sick of anything to do with hair...yes i have braids but hear me out. now i want a short cut, now this might be the shortest i've ever gone but yea i believe im going with the pixie cut but im tryna decide how pixie short im going to go but i do plan on having color and what not with it and i do plan on kinda looking rock star ish...but that wont happen until april...and im not going to unveil anypart of it until then...
so we shall see!
Who The Fuck is Larry?!
so i have figured out a mystery....
Chicago Larry...lls...well after a google investigation ...he is
http://mostgorgeous.carbonmade.com/projects/2237881#1
the nigga with the funny face and hat...lls ...oo the irony he's in a pic with ray j...
i HEART random shit
Chuck-gasm!
yup i think im a become a certified chuck collector...is there such a thing? ...but anyway ....im giving it serious thought! and these inspire me to do it!
Lemme Find Out...
...This summer might not suck when it comes to the movies...this one seems balla and i cant wait!
More Funny Office Clips
Just Because the last 1 was soo popular and honestly this one always leave me satisfied....That's what she said...lls
this is prolly the best and greatest 1....
So I Seen The Watchmen Last Night...
...and it was decent, they left out alot of stuff...but overall pretty good movie. i'll give it 3 1/2 stars
i thought these were funny and had 2 share them with you guys...
Incubus...nuff said!
now im an Incubus Fan thanx to some nigga name Panda lls (inside joke)
but yea i've been listening to them all day and i swear by the songs:
Pendulous Threads
Aqueous Transmission
lyrically these songs rock soo hard! and musically they're effin amazing....
check um out!
deleting blogs
so i went back and forth with it but now im thinking i dont think im going 2 delete any of my blogs because like my headline says it's simply how im feeling at the time so yea any blogs i regret ah well they shall remain posted
Some More Great Moments...
in tv history...Who The Fuck Is Larry?!
lls
for those that dont watch For The Love of Ray J
OMG!!!
Just in time for sunday
a sexier version of an already sexy beast....
my official dream whip(isnt that what the kids are calling cars these days?)
....yea im lil and i like lil cars....wanna fight about it?
upon reading Stuff White People Like....
...i might be white...
(Runs to mirror)
ok false alarm ...still 100% black/african-american/afro-american/darkie/coon/nigga/nigger....well u get it...yup but dammit i love some of the shit white people like...hmm wonder wht that makes me...naw not an oreo...we'll figure it out in another life..
wanna investigate your whiteness?
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.com/
My Name Is Desiree ...
...and i am addicted to online shopping at work...
(Hi Desiree)
All I Want For Christmas...
...wait ...it's only march isnt it? ...dammit..lls ..wish list gonna be long as hell already!
For The Ink Whore In Me
so if you dont know by now im a mad bme modblog head...like i go there everyday along with a few other blogs :coughcharleshamiltonkanyewestkidcudicough: but yea im always on the hunt for good tat blogs ..for sum reason most of the ones i read are about some bullshit and thats giving too much credit. but its always refreshing to see sum good shit and then i shall pass it along to you guys...so here ya goes!
http://www.needlesandsins.com/
and of course i found this via bme modblog ....
A Thousand Apologies!
for my you kno what really grinds my gears rant...esspecially after i turned out to have the most balla-ist of evenings..lls..thanx panda!
so my deepest apologies for jumping out there like that...soo outta character for me and trust and believe never again...
In The Midst of How I Feel
now i do very few personal blogs but now since im going through alot of mental anguish (nice lil legal term...) i've decided to put sum shit out there
now i hate when people take my kindness for weakness
dont think just because i havent said how i really feel that im not feeling a certain way
dont think you doing me any favors ever..
i dont ask much of anything from anyone
i dont do anything to anyone
and the more i try to do shit for others im left assed out
pain is a four letter word like fuck and shit
thats how im frankly feeling about shit
i have come to the conclusion that i just have to do for me and mine.
through my going thru period the one thing that has been made very clear is that i do have tru blu friends out there and that there are people who honestly give a fuck about me
and there are those that are fair weather friends. soon as i decide that im going to take time for me after sum shit im going thru that YOU quite honestly didnt help by adding you 2 funky ass cents ...and then the audacity to try and appease me by bullshitting me. KILL YOURSELF!
I've come to far to look back and honestly i'm giving up so yea
i bet you think this blog is about YOU....
it is ..lls
Lesson of the day: Watch what you say and mean everything you say.
now i dont wanna sound angry cuz that actually take energy that would be a waste for me to put on someone else, so it's a celebration, i had a beautiful thirsty thursday and my spirits are high and now that i have that off my chest :)
so with the conclusion of this hences my happy face consider this water off my back
Via Kid Cudi Blog
he blogged about it
i thought it was hot
so i blogged about it
any questions?
LLS
there are soo many balla versions of day and night
im starting to think he should come out with a day and night the remix album lls and just put all the versions of day and night on 1 cd...i'm just saying...
I'll Be Damned!
some shit jus honestly leaves me speechless...if i see ANYONE including my mama wearing these or anything resembling these im going to push u down on the sidewalk...
New Blog!!
here's another blog of good shit just for you guys...
http://www.thehundreds.com/wordpress/
...ok i know vince told me about this months ago...but i gotta be difficult! dammit!
BBC Blog
Yup....Thanx God & Gran ...i knew you guys was lookin out for me!
so in my blog travels i have discovered that my love does have a blog
http://bbcicecream.com/blog/
yeppers....
Look at my boo in the studio making shit happen...do i feel a new cd brewing?
Lupe's Chucks
ahhh.....Lupe...Chucks....Thirsty Thursday.....today might not suck...i guess prayer does change things...wait God and Thirty Thursdays...that soo doesnt sound right...ahh well dont judge me...
I HEART Jill Scott
beauty inside and out and yea talent out the ass...
i'd give 1 tittie just to see her live!
Why I Want A Chinchilla...
...yes i am not an animal rights activist but i personally have taken a liking to the chinchillas so yea .... death to chinchilla wearers!!
Good Shit
Black Ice
Underdog of The Day
period.
nothing else needs to be said just watch the videos.
he's not a rapper either u earthlings ...he's a spoken word poet.
Sometimes..
....i believe God throws bones personally ...cuz lawd i had the best laugh today ever!!
ok
ok
ok
i'll share it with you guys ....hopefully today won't suck..its still to early to tell.
Going Thru...
i'm just going through right now and i'm just on my knees in prayer so if i could get sum help praying then that would be greatly appreciated...
peace and blessings is all i wish for right now
Music Just Saved My Life
as i sat in my bed slowly taking the rest of my tylenol pms.... vh1 storytellers comes on...its the kanye west one. and now im here typing to you all after throwing up my life away
now i've never understood those people who cried when they met famous people and was all slobbery telling them " oo u saved my life" or "your music helped me get thru such and such" but i kinda get it now.
i dunno what he was saying word for word but i know the songs hit me n the chest and i just kinda broke ...cried like a bitch and stuck my finger down my throat and threw up like 6 blue pills...thats gonna be a poem...but anyway i guess all i wanna say is
Thanx Mr. West
and i shall continue in this fucked up world with my headphones on louder...
An Ode To Muse Lost
dont judge me ...this is my shit right? i can break the flippin rules if i want to and no one will effin judge me!! but yea my heart is heavy right now ...nope dont wanna talk about it i just wanna get thru it so me and my pen and paper will be in a corner gettin it in until i'm back to who i was trying to become again...hey that rhymed lol...
and since i did say i was gonna share some of my writing i find it appropriate to start with this so with out further ado
an ode 2 a missing muse
everlasting yet faded like smoke thru a clear sky
feelings infultrated by hearts grown cold
seperate ways
sounds of silence
deafening cries
tired spirits
i see it
i breathe it
high hopes can be easily shattered by
naive thoughts and actions
whats a girl to do
blackened future i suppose
blah blah blah
what I guess I'm sayn
is that I understand
and I love u 2
but the joy in ur heart is more important 2 me
so go get it...
ok ...dont say nuffin!
lls i know i said i wasnt going to blog anything else but dammit this shit was just that balla that it topped my balla men on film montage...so yes bask in the ambiance and dammit the song makes it go that much harder ...Leyomi..the shit and the urine..Under Dog of the Damn Day!! 
-not gonna even touch this one but yall already know...she's not a writer...mrs. hova is a mos def biter...yea i said it!
and a word from paris is burning just for the haters lls
"you wanna talk about reading...lets talk about reading"
