rest
in
peace MJ
the best to ever do it.
My Michael Jackson top 5:
1. I Cant Help It
2. Dirty Diana
3. Lady in My Life
4. Billie Jean
5. Keep It In The Closet/Earth Song
i have other favorite but these will come on and quite frankly be my AWW SHIT Moment of the day
i'm late as fuck with this but it's been a helluva weekend ...
R.I.P
Monday, June 29, 2009
Operation: Fat Kid Death
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
today begins the long journey to kill the fat kid in me...wish me luck!
Fellow Alien
Sunday, June 21, 2009
he's from space like me!
i HEART the name tokin black guy
and this song is pretty effin good!
You Know What Really Grinds My Gears....
...Father's Day.
now dont get me wrong if ur a real father and you doing whats right then by all means enjoy that tie and embrace that big piece of chicken. shit today is your day! you wallow in that shit! Happy Father's Day PopPop, the best and freshest to ever do it! and to the Noob Ed, you cut that umbilical cord! lls
now to sperm donors, Maury Guests, and all around fuck ups...yep, motherfuckers r what i affectionately call them. please and i want you to read this very clearly :
DONT YOU THINK YOU HAVE ANY LEVERAGE TODAY OR HELL ANYDAY FOR THAT MATTER.
-A CHECK DOES NOT MAKE YOU A DAD.
-SEEING YOUR KID ONCE A WEEK DOESNT MAKE YOU A DAD
-BUYING YOUR KID BULLSHIT TO MAKE THEM FORGET THE FACT THAT YOU AINT THERE DOES NOT MAKE YOU A FATHER.
-STOPPING OVER TO FUCK MOM DOES NOT MAKE YOU A FATHER
-TAKING THE KID TO YA NEW GIRL'S HOUSE DOES NOT MAKE YOU A FATHER
IT IS A FULL TIME JOB!
I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF YOU AND THE MOM DONT WORK OUT, NO KID ASKS TO BE IN THIS RAGGEDY ASS PLANET! BUT SINCE UR SPERM MET THE EGG TAKE SUM RESPONSIBILITY!
and for the record my father will get a happy father's day text and that shall be the end of my father's day...yea i said it
no i dont have Daddy issues, hell i dunno the man to have any issues. he knows what happen and i know what happen...there it is.
and that my friends is what really grinds my gears.
A Dark Skin Sun
up early, and i still cant decide if i'm on my emo or grunge shit today.
i do know today shouldnt be too shabby but then again it's hell too early to tell. Panda said he has groupies...what male doesnt...i guess he was being funny...i guess i'm being a girlfriend sheesh...i need more sleep. i'm becoming sensitive at my old age. i wonder how long i can sleep if i have ear plugs in?
o yea i have to talk about the dream i had last night...
so i'm floating in the sky...not really going anywhere just floating and then this glowing thingie just kinda blows past me like a shooting star then it blows by again and i feel warmth next to me and its Panda, but he's glowing kinda like he's Torch from Fantastic Four, then he takes my hand and we kinda blow thru the sky for a lil bit and then we suddenly stop and i look down and my tummy is on preggo swole...what does it all mean?
*soundgarden feels me being that this was on repeat n my dream like...*
i believe all this baby business is effing with me kinda but not alot. i guess i just am letting my imagination get the best of me, but i kno im not the only one that sits around and wonders what if?
on sum riddla shit:
-what if babies came from guys?
-what if roles were reversed and woman had 2 ask the man to marry them?
-where exactly do families come from?
i dunno jus been on sum domesticated shit lately. i kno i'm ready 4 the inevitable but it is a lil overwhelming. i mean shit last i checked i was planning a cipher and today i'm having marriage thoughts..sheesh, tempermental like shit!
just in time for father's day right?
but as music is my witness i'll be fine or we'll be fine ....
A Shadowy Ghost Thingie From The Left Side Of My Brain..
Saturday, June 20, 2009
so ...
today was eventful/uneventful
my cuzzo had a baby!!
and i worked 16hrs
kind of a ying yang type of thing...i miss panda...hopefully he's thinking about me or missing me. but he's being a rock star today doing recordings and what not, probably drinking and carrying on...sheesh! but we've been texting soo he's not on my shit list today.
i had a daydream i had a pet monkey and we flipped a sofa over and ran outta here and our get away car was driven by Kid Cudi...i'm sober i swear i am! i'm not even that creative fried. i jus analyze shit more. speaking of fried it's about time 2 plan another poof day with my cipher companions. and as previously discussed we honestly need 2 make a cipher rule book starting with phones will be obligated to be put on vibrate, even though it was my phone blowing the mood (last time) its always one of us. i've digressed. where was i even going with this?
ahh yes! my creative side wanted to speak...like it hasn't already done a number with the monkey thing.
but i feel a lil stifled in my aura, like i've become drone like or not my usual self. not even any of my alters. well good people of my imagination, this shall change! ooo yess there will be blood! so depending on what side of the bed i wake up on will determine which me will emerge from this lil body...i guess this is the warning blog...
im not crazy, i'm just creative in my mind as well as on the outside..sheesh! stop being soo literal earthlings ...why so serious?
Listen to Love Bomb on repeat for 20mins and tell me u dont feel like ur floating and i will officially hang my pen up forever, cuz i think it's fuckin impossible.
i think thats where this lil cloudy creative piece of what the fuck came from...
...dammit im sober trust me!
i'm at work for fucks sake!
Thursday - Lovesong Writer
frankly this is one of those songs that jus speaks to me. seriously being that i do consider myself a poet-like, i feel like i am in many ways a lovesong writer and honestly if u dont get it ....u just dont. period.
Sitting alone in the dark of a stadium
He whispers his secrets into a cheap guitar
With the flick of his wrist he turns words into melodies
Chords into church bells, fill up the allies
Lovers intwine in the heat of the night
And by dawn are apart in the shivering silences
We will pretend
That its all just made up
The songs that he writes
Are too personal
He cant play them for anyone
When hes all alone, the lovesong writer sings
Ooooh
Can anyone, hear me now?
No one hears him now
So he stumbles through syllables, cut from their sentences
Lost letters call to him, deep in the alphabet
"Please give us meaning"
Pose for me now
You're the broken heart
You're the sigh in the back of the throat
And on the other side
You're the queen of spades
You're the sound that she makes on her way
Theres always a way out
Theres always a way out
When hes all alone, the lovesong writer sings
Ooooh
Can anyone, hear me now?
But no one hears at all
The lovesong writer sits all alone
When he hears the sound of the knock at the door
50 red roses, falling apart
In the hands of someone that you scraped in and left behind
All of the others strolled up and showed up at your door
Staring you down, they said:
Sing for me, sing for me, sing for me now
Sing for me, sing for me, sing for me now
We already are
and that's real!
I Feel Inspired...
..more like boredom but vibe with me..
Things I see but cannot explain
Like purple stripes dancing
Across green dots
Making a mockery
Of fluffy orange clouds
I’m hallucinating small specks
Coming toward me
Making me feel like
Is all this real?
What has come over me?
Random images cloud my sanity
As the smoke makes the room
Look like it’s in the middle of a cloud
Fluffy white pastures of invisible things
These are a few of my favorite things
I inhale the cloud with each burst of life
And exhale the cloud with each weight
Weighing heavy on my shoulders
My far off land
Has become my favorite getaway
Allow me to introduce you to
Uncensored
I watch out the window
While the ran beats up the glass
I notice a little girl playing
Joyous and without a care
Laughing and frolicking
Her bright red Mary Janes
And black fluffy dress seems to float against the rain.
Her name is Sadness
She’s so adorable
Chubby cheeks and two manicured puffs on her head
Sadness, how can you be so cute?
Yet cause so much pain?
How can I see you as beautiful?
Yet hate when you come around
I know when I hear that angelic laugh
The tears are soon to follow
And you leave me empty
With your playtime antics
I still don’t understand though
Why do you only play when it rains?
*poetry snaps*
Support My Panda!
Here's To..
they have a live show coming up too!
http://www.myspace.com/heres2music
Can u spot the spot that i call panda? lls
i HEART drummers...what can i say?
Concert Review: Portugal. The Man!
so my excitement exudes me ...seriously!
and of course the usual concert trio is in effect. now i take it upon myself to to start my experience with a kamikazee and a ling ling (yuengling). and that is when the show begins..kinda.
first off on a side note: the tight jean disease has officially reached a fever epidemic pitch! personally if my man's pants r tighter than mine...thats a problem! period. but if that is whats hot n the streets then..there it is. what can i say? not much it's just not my thing.
now on sum stalker shit ray had a smoker's break with the bass player from portugal.the man and panda and i also partake, me in the black and panda in the conversation. the concert had begun around this time so when the bass player left with carryout we went back in and saw the first band. cant remember their names for the life of me but they did pretty decent. not bad but not overly good either it was jus overall decent. cant remember their name but then again i had a poof! day(follow me on twitter for definition) now the second band The Painter and The Canvas, which on stage looked like a small army due to large numbers, was good. period. their muse, mars volta, incubus influences were very evident in sound and stage performance. now my only beef with them...please give ur spanish kid a real job/instrument. it was really gridning my gears to see this poor kid jus shaking a damn maraca, tamborine or watever he was given at the time...sheesh! but they gave a solid show. the last band before Portugal.The Man had hella equipment! i'm talking easily over 8 stacks... including a mac :(
now if there is one thing i think is becoming lost in music is that big equipment doesnt equal big sound period. u can take a spend all the money u want but if it sucks, guess what? it's still going to suck, sorry. and that is where i will leave that.
Headliner: Balla shit! maybe because i'm a fan but it was good shit. a lil low energy because of prior car accident but the show was still good shit. the songs were slower tempo and to me it jus made um better ...
honestly i think my twitter post tells it perfectly:
hearing church mouth, lay me back down and my mind live was worth the sore feet n lower back pain...now i shall eat, get massaged and sleep.
Must See
Saturday, June 13, 2009
just wont be taking my mother this is one of those tear jerkers and i dont feel like bringing tissue ...
Hip Hop's Elegy.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Rest
In
Peace
ok i'm done being dramatic, lls but this how i'm feeling right now.
Poetry Moments
Ode to Old Chucks (Long Dusty Road)
Oh ‘ye old black and white shoes
Of much grace
Summoned just for me
Why do you leave me?
With your tattered laces
And broken in sole
How can you leave me now?
Barefoot on this country road,
I don’t know where to go from here
Without your signature look
I have no identity
Relying so much on what you seem to interpret
I mourn your loss
So I’m going to walk
This dusty road
And see where the diamond footprints will take me
This dusty road
To discover where you could have gone
This dusty road
To find my everlasting salvation
In the comforts of your soles
thank you thank you you're far too kind...lls
On a Lighter Note
this is the coolest shit ever! yay!!
Late Night with Jimmy Fallon - Saved By The Bell Reunion Update 3
My Again Hiatus From Hip Hop
so i think my bigger than hip hop blog was a lil early written..i'm officially pulling another hiatus from hip hop
reasons: bickering and just str8 up crabs in a barrel shit that is just bleh!
first off lemme say i will still be supporting my rapper friends because they are like family to me some closer than others but overall they my peoples and i know they support me so i'm going to support them. period.
but this goofy he say she say shit is dumb!
isn't everyone adults?
isn't everyone in the business of making money like keep it real, you do it for the love of the music and thats cool but at the end of the day if it didnt make a profit or a means to an end would any of you do it 4real?
ok then so why ru pulling the next man down? honestly its just crabs in a barrel mentality and it is pretty f'n dumb! the economy is bad but clearly on how the rich are still spending it aint that bad. so get your money and that should be it
now disrespect is a whole 'nother topic
if u disrespect one man and expect him not to say anything than you're honestly asking for an ass-whoppin'
and that me being nice
a friend of mine once said " i am a man first"
and i believe everyone should look at it like that
not like someone is beneath you or anything of the sort but as a man first (or woman cuz apparently woman are just as bad if not worst)
so disrespect to me is the highest slap in the face anyone can do
so if your being disrespectful and u get that ass smacked literally or figuratively (or both) then dont cry or have a complaint just take your punishment as an adult
the fact that all this is going on in a music genre as a whole is pretty disheartening and for that reason i will continue to live in my galaxy hip hop free...
if u keeping it real so be it!
keep doing you
if u fronting and doing whatever it is crabs n a barrel do ..then u know this is about u.
is it wrong i'm waiting for my "you dont even listen to rap 4real" or "you're soo white" card to be pulled ...dammit people give it a rest i know i'm the token black kid in most places i enjoy 2 frequent and all that poppycock...tell me something i dont know.
hahaha!
this was funny to me...like really funny...a man that can make you laugh is kryptonite people..DEADLY!
AND AY HOLLYWOOD HOLT...that boy good! lls
...it's still bigger than hip hop
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
so lately i've been trying to give certain hip hop artist a chance. dont get it twisted i'm still on my rock shit but i had a rapper friend of mine tell me i'm being unfair esspecially because of soo many good mixtapes coming out right now, which is true i've had my own little personal binge on all things mixtape. and i'm not even gonna bullshit, alot of what i heard has been pretty good except for the likes of gucci mane who is still the coon of the year to me, i think hip hop is trying to come full circle and just get back to where it should have been the whole time and that is with the damn beats! cuz i swear to bob! like everyone for about 3 months to me was sounding the same like no bullshit and the fact that everyone freestyles over the same beats really grinds my gear hell even the few rappers i listen to are guilty of that shit! but i've digressed... right now i'm an instrumental kick and all i've been listening to is J Dilla,Rza,and H2 beats...is that closed minded? lls
i guess the point of this random rant is to say keep coming with the mixtapes rappers and maybe just maybe i will listen to hip hop again...but thats a big maybe!
and as far as production goes...aint nothing like laying back and letting J Dilla read ur mind ...R.I.P.
and i dunno if alot of people know who H2 is but he's nice! and the fact that he puts out instrumentals ...ahh yes! they're worth the space on my computer trust!
O YEA ...i am not a rap fan/critic/expert in the least bit...all i do is let my ears guide me and then i jus saying how i'm feeling...nothing more ...nothing less.
and for those that dont believe me i will give u my top 5 songs on itunes :
Love Bomb- N.E.R.D
The Beautiful Ones- Prince
Oceans- Pearl Jam
1234- Plain White Ts
Song For You- Donny Hathaway
see...lls ...i dont even have a hip hop top 5 anymore..i wonder if a certain black male will question my "nigga-ness" as he called it...ahh, i love my fellow coloreds..sheesh!
The Story of My Life!
soo appropriate being that i just got to work!
but yea ahh this reminds me of the days when i was still n montgomery mall...sheesh!
children's place and limited too were almost the death of me
...and then Bob Marley said "I wanna love you.."
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
i soo wanna write something starting with that!
maybe 2marro cuz i'm a lil' drained.
how was your day?
Oh, mine u ask, it was simply behind a desk being a drone. life soo shouldnt be this way. dont get me wrong i kno i have 2 work for money and that whole cycle of madness but i swear my imagination is bigger than my head on some days. period. there are only soo many blogs i can do or so many texts i can send or soo many tweets i can type or hell so many poems i can write before it's just like...now what? but i guess at the end of the day this is probably the difference between a job and a career. cuz at this job i feel like a waste. am i having an office space moment? only in dreams could i be that cool.
music is my savior everytime. when i'm at my whits end a song will come on and then i feel like ok maybe a lil bit longer. example u ask...i have a perfect one, right now. has i type this its making me kinda sad that my 3rd eye is soo sad and then RATM (Rage Against The Machine...why did i abbreviate if i was just going to type it out..only me)Vietnow comes on and my mind drifts again. where does it drift u ask....hell, i dont even know most the time. it just goes to a comfort zone of some sorts and makes everything make sense to me.
like a mental climax or orgasm for the vulgar.
word.
this was pretty cool and everyone knows how i feel about a certain JT so this did make me smile at this ungodly hour...
schweet.
Word?
didnt know if i felt like posting this but figured fuck it i aint got shit else to do...
so apparently Xbox is tryna compete with the Wii and this is suppose 2 be their wii killer...i guess...personally i'm a typical lazy person and even the wii is a semi work out 4 me so lets say i get high or drunk (maybe both) and decide i wanna partake in sum video games ...i gotta get up from my comfy spot and move around like i'm doing an actual activity? the devil is a liar! but i guess in retrospect this shit is kinda hot..
Sad...That Is All
Not a story i like to wake up to but this is something worth sharing.
Hendrix murdered by his manager, says former aide
Star 'stuffed with pills as part of insurance scam'
By Sadie Gray
Sunday, 31 May 2009
The rock legend Jimi Hendrix was murdered by his manager, who stood to collect millions of dollars on the star's life insurance policy, a former roadie has claimed in a new book.
James "Tappy" Wright says that Hendrix's manager, Michael Jeffrey, drunkenly confessed to killing him by stuffing pills into his mouth and washing them down with several bottles of red wine because he feared Hendrix intended to dump him for a new manager, according to a report in the Mail on Sunday.
In his book, Rock Roadie, Mr Wright says Jeffrey told him in 1971 that Hendrix had been "worth more to him dead than alive" as he had taken out a life insurance policy on the musician worth $2m (about £1.2m at the time), with himself as the beneficiary. Two years later, Jeffrey was killed in a plane crash.
Hendrix died in September 1970, aged 27. An ambulance crew found his body in the Samarkand Hotel, west London, in the room of a woman called Monika Dannemann, whom he had known for only a few days.
Hendrix was alone in the room, lying on his back, with the gas fire on and the door open. There was no record of who had called the ambulance. His inquest recorded the cause of his death as barbiturate intoxication and inhalation of vomit, and recorded an open verdict.
Describing the night of Jeffrey's confession, Mr Wright wrote: "I can still hear that conversation, see the man I'd known for so much of my life, his face pale, hand clutching at his glass in sudden rage."
Wright claims Jeffrey told him: "I had to do it, Tappy. You understand, don't you? I had to do it. You know damn well what I'm talking about.
"I was in London the night of Jimi's death and together with some old friends... we went round to Monika's hotel room, got a handful of pills and stuffed them into his mouth... then poured a few bottles of red wine deep into his windpipe.
"I had to do it. Jimi was worth much more to me dead than alive. That son of a bitch was going to leave me. If I lost him, I'd lose everything."
John Bannister, the surgeon who dealt with Hendrix at hospital, has said he was convinced the star had drowned in red wine, despite having very little alcohol in his bloodstream.
"I recall vividly the very large amounts of red wine that oozed from his stomach and his lungs and in my opinion there was no question that Jimi Hendrix had drowned, if not at home then on the way to the hospital," he wrote in 1992.
Makes me wonder...what would life be like if this manager didnt supposently didnt murder music?
either way Jimi is a legend in my life. period. Rest in peace.
Quick Riddla Question..
Monday, June 1, 2009
..do niggaz really know what a conglomerate is?
no seriously cuz Busta rhymes is making it real cool to say shit you dont kno the meaning of so since i am a people person...well not really but close enough...i'm going to give the definition:
con⋅glom⋅er⋅ate
/n., adj. kənˈglɒmərɪt, kəŋ-; v. kənˈglɒməˌreɪt, kəŋ-/ Show Spelled [n., adj. kuhn-glom-er-it, kuhng-; v. kuhn-glom-uh-reyt, kuhng-] Show IPA noun, adjective, verb, -at⋅ed, -at⋅ing.
–noun
1.a corporation consisting of a number of subsidiary companies or divisions in a variety of unrelated industries, usually as a result of merger or acquisition.
educate people
each one teach one if you will.
so my good deed of the day is done!
Since I'm Kind of Awake Now....
...i share my song of the Day
it's songs like this that make snoop the man...seriously!
Word.
this is kinda hot! if i was still a gamer like i use 2 be this would be a def buy...but i honestly dont play like i use 2 so eh..
Why Is Everybody Diddy Boppin?
soo...at first it was one the biggest funnys in hip hop...now everybody and they mama is either doing the diddy bop or talkin bout diddy boppin?
sheesh!
this is the only man that should do the diddy bop ...since he name is diddy! but i'm jus sayin!
The MTV Movie Awards
i didnt watch cuz i was sleeping my life away but based on Twitter and other blogs this Eminem vs Bruno shit was crazy! Personally upon waking up and viewing numerous clips...this one is my fav!
o yea and if u wanna see the clip everyone is talking about...
staged? on bruno's part yea...eminem wasnt aware tho...clearly!
and another one...
ok quick question
since lebron isn't in the finals...is nike pissed about how much money they put into these commercials? and is dwight howard going to join in on the funny?
also Panda had a revelation....is Lebron gonna go 2 the Knicks?
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