And As I...

..sit here bored. i have soo much on the ol' noggin!

now usually i try to keep my blog light hearted and unpersonal but i honestly feel the need 2 get sum shit off my chest.

what the fuck am i doing?
lls
no seriously i am trying to get organized but its like im still not happy.
and i had a discussion with a confidant of mine and i put it out there flat out.
no matter how many people i have around me or how many people im calling family at the end of the day im alone.

like seriously im the overachiever of the friend world and its gotten me n trouble with relationships and everything but hey i do it anyway cuz i keep telling myself hey if the shoe was on the other foot they would be the same way. and whats fucked up is that i can honestly say that only out of my whole phone book 2 at most would be on the same level as me.

dont get me wrong im not counting my blessings or anything of the sort but atleast 70-30!

i dunno maybe im being a cry baby but seriously im sick of this shit.
well i guess when the stars come together i'll be str8 or when i get my better half on some till death do us part shit i'll jus put all my burdens on him...not to say i dont do my share of that now :)

but blah blah blah enough about me!